It isn't Valentines Day yet, it wouldn't matter if it was I don't really celebrate. I don't want to go to a fancy restaurant with too many other couples and celebrate my marriage. I don't want jewelry or expensive flowers. Not on that day. It isn't a real holiday or anything. I want a dinner at home, on the floor by the fireplace with wine and candles. I want a handpicked flower from the garden outside and I want to celebrate my love with my husband once a month at least. No gimicks or stuffed toys. Just us and a glass of wine.
This month has been rough for me mentally, emotionally. Why? I am not sure really. My life is in a good place right now. I am happy. My children are healthy and happy and my husband is as well. My dog is not great but he is still happy. His old tail still wags at the sight of "his son" or dad. He still eats and drinks and loves to give kisses. His mind is failing him. He will walk around the Island in the kitchen in circles then forget where he is. He will cry for help and we rush to me to give him comfort. He will walk into a corner and cry as if lost. This might be his last year with us on this plane of existence and I plane on making him as comfortable as possible. For now though, he sits here next to me happy and loved.
Our basement is almost done! I knew it was going to be a big process but it was so much more then that. Strange men in my home, my sanctuary. Their energies crashed with mine and I felt it. They were very nice and respectful but strangers non the less. It was worth it, at least I think so. We haven't gotten to really use it yet but it sure does look beautiful.
We also did the backsplash! it was a project I didn't plan on doing but here we are LOL. I was tired of looking at the old backsplash falling apart. I thought I could strip the old vinyl off and maybe paint it but nope, it was ugly and I chipped old paint off and it needed to be covered asap so we head to our local hardware store.....about 5 times to buy and return materials. I couldn't picture what I wanted which happens when I get overwhelmed. I had stressed myself out (and probably my husband too)! Thank God for him because without him taking over I might not have a backsplash today. He is great! This project took a week. A week of not having a full kitchen and daytime painting and nighttime cutting and hammering. So trying a cleaning schedule this week, between Pintobean and a backsplash was not happening....hopefully next week? maybe lol
I gotta go grab my baby girl from school and get milk. I am still struggling with going to the store but I am getting better. Everyday is a new promise to try and do better.
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